I think this “death fear” inside me is prohibiting my body’s healing.
You can run from a childhood food addiction, but you can’t hide. It’ll catch up with you, every time.
Embarking on the AIP diet is overwhelming, again… and why won’t my alcoholic voice shut up?
Why does it seem like things must completely fall apart- before the rebuild? It seems like everything is falling apart right now. School. Home. Family. Life. I’m ready to make circumstances better, but it’s like walking upstream in an overflowing river. Some things are little. Some things are big. But nothing is right. Right now.Continue reading “One Day at a Time”
If only it were that easy. If only I could don my superhero costume and go rescue my hubby’s soul… imprisoned by years of manipulation and abuse from his ego. It’s like the old devil and angel on your shoulder, you know, the wolf you feed? We all have a devil and an angel, andContinue reading “Honey, I Killed your Ego”
Two years ago was one of the most shameful days of my life. I won’t go into details, and they aren’t tragically awful, as I was a ‘high bottom’ drunk. I’ve never had a DUI or anything like that. But I knew that I had to stop drinking once and for all. In these twoContinue reading “Two Years, No Drinks”
This week has been a doozy, which I attribute to today’s “Wolf Moon” the first full moon of the year. Monday was fine. Tuesday I went into work and had kids scheduled to see. I have a paraprofessional assigned to me on in-person days, so I was counting on him for a number of things.Continue reading “Full Moon”
In a modern society, it’s easy to let our mind get cluttered with thoughts. I have what some people call ‘Monkey Mind’ and can be severely affected by these statements and questions swirling in my head. For me, the symptoms of a messy mind include; feeling anxious/stressed, having a buzzing sensation at the base ofContinue reading “Quiet the Mind”
I can look at the horrific things, like my mom dying and me relapsing for the 100th time, and it reminds me of the many blessings I have received from these experiences. I am looking forward to years of personal growth in this area.